God Only Knows....

10 years ago today my world became brighter because God chose me to be Lexie's mommy. I can not describe in words the love I feel for my kids. I was 19 when I had Lexie. I didn't know how drastically my life would change at the time. But I do clearly remembering looking over at her screaming her little head off while they were checking her all out... and I was looking at her going oh my gosh I am a mommy. Then going OH MY GOSH I AM A MOMMY! Scary stuff at 19. I see girls who are 19 and I think oh my goodness, that is how old I was when I had Lexie. I am proud of the job I did. I have often wanted to change the fact that I was a young mother. Just thinking if I could have gone to college, if I would have done this or that differently, this would have been better. But what I have come to figure out is that I am the person and mother I am b/c I did have them when I was young. We have been able to grow together; I have so much fun with them! I always tell that my song to them is God Only Knows by the beach boys. Not all the lyrics fit like the first verse is I may not always love you... of course that isnt true but all of the other is a perfect description of my view of them. If I were to start my life over and not have Lexie when I did.... God Only Knows what I'd be.

I may not always love you
But long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
Ill make you so sure about it

God only knows what Id be without you

If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows what Id be without you

If you should ever leave me
Well life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what Id be without


HAPPY 10th BIRTHDAY MY SWEET MONKEY GIRL! I LOVE YOU!!!!